Archive | August, 2010

Family Photos!

17 Aug

We had some family/maternity photos taken a couple of weeks ago. I am lucky to have such a photogenic family & such a talented friend to take pictures!

We’ll have new family photos soon…when our newest family member arrives!

Light at the End of the Tunnel…

3 Aug

Before I complain, let me first say that I am very grateful to have had a relatively easy, very healthy & full term pregnancy. I realize that I am very lucky to have had 2 healthy pregnancies resulting in 2 healthy babies.

Now…this summer has been pretty miserable. The heat will not let up for more than a couple of days at a time & I can’t go outside when it’s this hot. At least not for any amount of time that would be useful for playing with Ella or attending any sort of fun function. I’ve been trying to find ways to wear Ella out without putting myself in danger since I already have a tendency to get sick in the heat. We’ve been to the pool several times, though even that has been crappy a few times. When it is so hot outside that the pool feels like a warm bath, it doesn’t do much to refresh you. We’ve been to a couple of free movies, the Zoo (plenty of inside stuff), the mall playgrounds, playdates. And the 3 weeks Ella was at camp were wonderful because she got to play outside without me having to be with her. I’m just hoping this heat decides to calm down soon. Blech!

I LOVED being pregnant with Ella! Given, I was never sick when I was pregnant with her. And even though it was summer, it wasn’t this incredibly hot. And I wasn’t chasing around another child then. But other than the last few days of pregnancy with her, I felt great the whole time & was a little sad to not be pregnant anymore. So when I got pregnant this time, I was excited! I get to feel the baby move around again, wear cute maternity dresses, have a nice little baby bump. WRONG. The novelty of pregnancy wore off rather quickly this time. Besides the “morning” sickness that lasted for several weeks, and the ridiculous heat this summer, it’s just been less “fun”. My back hurts more. This baby is lower so my bladder, my girly parts, my hips are all sore all the time. I feel like the next 2 1/2 weeks could be the longest 2 1/2 weeks of my life. I KNOW it’s a finite amount of time, that the baby will be here sooner rather than later. I know this in my head, but it’s hard to wake up tired every day because you can’t sleep because either your hips or your arms hurt or you have to pee 3 times or your 3 year old woke up a bunch.

It’s not all bad. My skin looks great right now! My hair is growing more slowly so I don’t have to shave as often (good thing since I can’t reach my legs very well). People are really nice to me & always willing to help. Since I’ve been working pretty hard to stay fit, I feel like I look better than when I was pregnant with Ella. I can pretty much eat ice cream as much as I want.

I’m so much more ready this time to meet the baby, to hold her & have a newborn again. With Ella, I was terrified of labor & delivery, of the pain & recovery, and even of having a brand new baby. What was I supposed to DO with her now? I loved her the minute I saw her, but I was still a bit dumbfounded at what to do with a newborn. Not to mention that new babies come with random problems like not pooping, not latching, belly buttons falling off & disappearing. And we were pretty laid back for first time parents. But this time, I know more what to expect. I know to enjoy the newborn stage because it won’t last very long. And I know how much harder it gets as they get older & it becomes less about meeting needs & more about actual parenting.

I know that once the baby is here & my time as a parent of 1 is gone forever, I’ll probably wish I would’ve taken more time to enjoy every moment I have left with Ella these last couple of weeks. I’ve honestly been trying to snuggle her, tickle her, hug her, love her as much as I can. But at this point, I’m tired, I’m in pain & I’m just ready to have the baby. I think Ella is ready, too. I think she will be happy to have a Mom back who can run around with her again, go outside & play, bend over. Even though the baby will change her world, she is going to be an amazing big sister.

And I just have to keep telling myself that the light at the end of the tunnel keeps getting brighter every day.