Archive | February, 2010

They Can’t Take That Away From Me…

22 Feb

There are many, many crazy things/That will keep me loving you/And with your permission/May I list a few…

The way you wear your hat…

The way you sip your tea…

The memory of all that…

No they can’t take that away from me!

The way your smile just beams…

The way you sing off key…

The way you haunt my dreams…

No they can’t take that away from me!…

The way you hold your knife…

The way we danced til three…

The way you changed my life…

No they can’t take that away from me!

Just the Two of Us, We Can Make it if We Try…

22 Feb

Admittedly, I have a soft spot in my heart for Will Smith.  Especially “Just the Two of Us”.  I am not a crier (well, at least when I’m not pregnant) but that song will bring tears to my eyes every time.  It’s what you hope all parents will be for their kids and hey, it has a good beat, too.

As I enter my second trimester of being pregnant with baby number 2 (who still needs a good nickname…any thoughts?), I get a little sad every day.  Not because I’m not excited to have a brand new life in our family; Ella will be a fantastic big sister and it will be so much fun to watch the two kids grow up together.  But a little selfish part of me is sad because my days alone with Ella are truly numbered.  I won’t just be her mommy anymore.  She will have to share me.  And I will have to share my heart.  I know once the baby is here it will be an easy transition, loving 2 kids.  But THINKING about loving someone as much as I love Ella is so hard!  She has been the absolute best part of my life.  How could any other baby ever be as cute and fun and cuddly and lovable as Ella???

I know I’m not alone in this.  I’m sure most second time parents fear not loving their second as much as their first.  And when the second gets here, he is loved just as much.  I know it’s not dividing your love, it’s multiplying it.  But there’s still a little part of my that says “What if?”.

I think that I could have been content with just Ella.  And the selfish part of me would have just kept our kid count at 1.  But I grew up with 2 brothers.  And lots of cousins.  And I don’t want my selfishness to keep Ella from experiencing brothers or sisters.  She deserves the opportunity to have someone to get into trouble with, to blame stuff on, to play with, to teach & learn from.  And when Dave & I are old, she will have someone to share the burden of choosing a nursing home with.  Someone to help her celebrate her achievements.  Someone that will always be there for her in a way that I just can’t as a parent.  So even though I would be happy to just keep my Ellie Bean to myself, I think she’s worth sharing.  And I know she will be so happy to be a big sister.

Here’s what happened…

18 Feb

I have not abandoned my blog.

I actually THINK about blogging a lot.

But there are a lot of excuses.  I haven’t been feeling well for the past 6-7 weeks.  (Yes, I’m pregnant…I know, it’s not exciting without a nice huge announcement, but I’ll put one up when we find out the gender in a month).  Plus, the computer is downstairs and it’s REALLY cold downstairs.  The only time I have to blog is when Ella is napping and usually I want to nap then, too.  Dave’s been working from home more often so I have less access to the computer.

So, now that you’ve heard my excuses, please forgive me.  I’m really, really going to try to put up a post at least once a week.  I think it will help force me to upload pics off my camera.  (Which I didn’t do for this post, but at least I’m writing something!)

I guess I’ve also felt uninspired.  It’s not that I have nothing to write about.  Ella is very active and funny and learning new stuff all the time!  Right now, she’s reading (reciting from memory?) “Goodnight Moon” to her dolphin & bunny.  I have great friends and family to hang out with and tell stories about.  I think part of me just feels like everyone already has facebook and reads everything I have to say there.

But I want to really expand my thinking and writing beyond a few characters in a status update.  So what do you want to read about?  Ella?  Pop culture?  How it sucks to be pregnant, sick & stuck inside while it’s freezing & gloomy outside?  How I have nothing to wear right now because I’m in between regular clothes & maternity clothes?  All the rednecks & hoosiers I run into doing errands on a daily basis?  I’ve often thought about a post in which I just blog my inner thoughts for the day.  That would take some serious jotting down!

To update a few things:

  • We are HOPING to move this year.  I really want this to be accomplished prior to the baby arriving in mid-late August.  So…SOMEONE BUY OUR HOUSE!   It will go back on the market in several weeks.
  • Several new babies have arrived for our friends and we have been so happy to meet them!  Welcome to the world baby Owen, baby Luke & baby June!
  • Another Disney World trip is in the works for next year!  WOOOHOOO!!
  • Hopefully, by then, Ella will be potty trained.  *sigh*
  • What are you supposed to do with your Christmas tree when your trash people won’t take it & it won’t fit in your car?  Can we safely stuff it into the fireplace?

I am sorry for not updating more often.  I need motivation to keep on top of this, so feel free to send me nagging emails about updating!  :-)

PS: Check out Dave & Sara’s website @ shutterscience.com